User Profile

There are easier things in life than trying to find a nice guy...like nailing jelly to a tree for example.

I am often overlooked, and end up as your friend and nothing more. I don’t want to play mind games. I understand that I am not perfect, and that the guys I’m interested in aren’t perfect either. I care more than I should for guys who don't deserve my attention.
I will provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story I’ve heard a thousand times. I laugh loud and often. I have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. I have heard countless times, "there are plenty of fish in the sea," and "time heals all wounds."
I’ve spent weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush. I’ve received a drunken phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite me over but is still willing to pass out in my bed. I’ve been told I’m too good or too smart or too pretty. You can take me home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship. I’ve been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment or never real to begin with. I have allowed a guy into my head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, and he’s just not looking to be tied down. I’ve heard the, "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after I read more into a situation than was ever intended. I have been used and abused, enduring what he was giving because at least he was giving something at all. I love my friends for the nights they've reassured me that I am beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of something better than this.